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Who knew writing was so easy?

I just wrote an entire blog post in 15 minutes.

Was it a good one? Eh, it was decent. But what do you expect from someone thinking out loud at 1 AM in the morning? If I’m being honest, not much. 

My point is, it doesn’t take as much effort as one thinks to write, and by write, I mean write

Write down whatever comes to mind. Whatever you think in a moment, note it down on your phone, on a sticky-note, on the back of your hand, or whatever you like to take notes on. 

I’m not necessarily talking about writing a Master’s thesis, a dissertation, or a essay on how your positionality has influenced your epistemology (do not ask me what that last one means because even after writing a paper on it, I still don’t fully understand what this is trying to say). I just mean writing words down. 

Writing words down is how I start anything. Need to write an essay on how a theory can be found in today’s world? Need to remember what to pick up over the weekend? Just start writing. 

I’ve heard some people call this a ‘word vomit’ moment, where you just ‘vomit’ out any words that come to mind. Think of it nicely as a brainstorm session, and don’t take it too seriously—unless you’re working against a very tight deadline; in that case, please take things seriously. 

Now, please understand and keep in mind that I am no expert when it comes to writing. Yes, I am a Communication student, but that doesn’t mean anything much (trust me). 

Yes, I write lots of papers for my classes and I’ve lived much of my university life between Microsoft Word, Citefast, and Google Scholar, but that doesn’t necessarily mean that I am a good communicator or writer. 

This takes me back to my thoughts on what the term ‘Communication’ means and what it means to study it. Though, even without critical thinking and analyses of historical theories, one can still put words on a page. 

Not sure where I was going with all of this in the first place, but let me just remind you that writing is not as difficult as it seems. 

As cliché as this is going to sound, ideas don’t come together over night, and so won’t your writing too. It takes time, review, and revision, but we all have to start somewhere. 

So, get moving and write down whatever comes to mind. Something is bound to stick. 

Burned out? Burnt out.

I think I’m burnt out. Burned out? Burned… Burnt. You get what I mean (I hope). I don’t know which of the two it is but I think I’m that. 

I don’t have the motivation to do anything right now. I’d rather be sitting around or staring at a wall. If anything, I could be using this time to sleep, but that would just be a big waste of such good time. 

You know what though? Writing about this gives me a reason to get all those bleh feelings out. Trust me, I’ll be over it before you know it. 

It’s just insane though to think about what the human body puts up with. If you’re like me, you stay up much later than you should only to wake up noon the next day (okay, well not always noon, but it feels that late a lot of the time). And then you may spend an hour or so getting ready for the half-a-day you have left to make use of. Then a couple hours go by, you do some work, it’s time for dinner, and all of a sudden the day is over. 

Rinse and repeat. 

Even though I spend my days working away at homework and work, it still feels like I never get anything done. Well, okay I guess it doesn’t help when I spend more time on my laptop online shopping or clearing storage up on my phone than I should. It’s just a matter of me using my time wisely… productively… usefully? Please, could this sound any less cliché??

I should be sleeping right now, but instead I’m forcing my eyes awake so I can get stuff done and feel accomplished. 

I’m sitting here at my laptop like something amazing is going to happen. Maybe in the literal blink of my eye, I’ll watch my list of things to do completely disappear. I’ll be done with this semester, and I’ll finally be able to enjoy some much needed sleep and leisure time. 

That, however, is for another day. Something to look forward to for sure. In the meantime, let’s just get through this month. This is just another one of those moments that I’ll get over soon with enough time spent scrolling through Pinterest or Instagram. 

I just need to romanticize life for a sec and everything will be fine. 

I got this. You got this too. We’ll be fine! Just trust the process.