Tag Archives: love

trying something new – infatuation

 

Infatuation is a dangerous game,

 

an emotional Russian roulette;

 

a dizzying,

 

crazy,

 

feeling

 

– emotion?

 

It’s walking on a tightrope,

 

the knots rough under your bare feet;

 

the air heavy.

 

Perfect balance is a must

 

or else

 

you’ll plummet to more disastrous

 

and complicated

 

emotions.

 

A Single Girls Valentine’s Day

Generally, I’m not a massive fan of Valentine’s day, but this year I decided to do things a little differently.
In years past I’ve spent my single Valentine’s days lonely and envious of those with people to spend the day with. I also went through a phase of referring to the pseudo -holiday as a “capitalist driven scam meant to trick people into spending money on fake evidence of their ‘love'”. I went through a cynical phase, can you tell?
Lately though, I’ve started to see that Valentine’s day is, in fact a day of celebrating love. whether its celebrating the love in a relationship, or celebrating self love. 

The Look:

Even though I’m spending this Valentine’s day in my pjs watching rom-coms, I decided to do a pretty-in-pink look to celebrate the holiday!
For my base, my face, my eyebrows, and my mascara,  I used pretty much all the same products as in my Casual Christmas Look.
Except the highlighter, In this look I used the 
PHYSICIANS FORMULA Butter Highlighter  in Pearl and I am 100% obsessed with it.

My Eyes-
To achieve this pretty pink look I used the 
ANASTASIA BEVERLY HILLS Modern Renaissance Eye Shadow Palette
I started by fluffing Buon Fresco into my crease with a fluffy brush, followed by a slight dusting of Love Letter  lower in the crease and slightly onto my lid. I took a second to blend those two together, and then I placed Venetian Red on my outer corner with a tapered brush. I blended this slightly into the outer part of the crease, but I kept it mostly focused on the outer corner of the eye. After getting all of my mattes placed, I used the URBAN DECAY Al Nighter Long-Lasting Makeup Setting Spray to foil Vermeer , and I placed that on the inner two thirds of my lid, blending the edges slightly. To finish off the look, I used a thin angled brush to create a winged eyeliner effect with Cyprus Umber.  

My Lips-
On my lips I’m wearing the 
HUDA BEAUTY Liquid Matte Lipstick in Crush
I love this formula and I absolutely love this colour, Its a good everyday colour. If I were to do this look again though, I’d use a lip colour thats a little less peachy, and a little more pink.

If you want to see me doing this look, check out my video on Instagram! @jordananne76

Some Tips For Loving Yourself This Valentine’s Day:

When you’re single, Valentine’s day can be a day filled with sadness and jealousy, when it should be a day filled with celebrating self love. So here are a few tips for how you can show yourself a little self love this Valentine’s day.

Take Yourself Out-
If you don’t want to spend this Valentine’s day on your couch, then don’t be afraid to ask yourself on a date!Personally, I love going to movies alone, and I love sitting on a coffee shop patio drinking a SOLO espresso. So I can throughly recommend putting on your favourite outfit,  taking yourself out to your favourite place, and savouring the simplicity, and the silence, of doing something you love, alone. There is no one else to contend with,  and nobody else to wait for, everything is on your time line. Doing things alone also provides much needed time with yourself to nurture the most important relationship in your life.

Treat Yourself To a Little Luxury –
I don’t always make time for the more luxurious things in life, but when you’re nurturing self love, treating yourself is especially important. whether its doing your nails, or getting your hair done, a little luxury can go a long way. A couple specific luxurious things I can recommend for this valentines day are actually things I’ve already mentioned in a couple of my Self Care Sunday posts. Have a bath, or do a face mask. Around Valentine’s day, LUSH comes out with a Unicorn Horn bubble bar and I love nothing more than sliding into a steaming hot bubble bath surrounded by this sparkling scent. I also love getting out of the bath glittery and smelling good. The face mask I’d recommend for this day of luxury are really any of the LUSH Jelly Face Masks specifically, FOMO or Bunny Moon. I love these masks for a little more luxury, because they’re thick and creamy, and I love that I have to mush them up in my hands before I can put them on my face. I also notice immediate results every time I use these masks, and that always makes me feel good.
Luxury is anything that makes you feel luxurious, so really just do something you love, that makes you feel good.

And finally,
Spend Sometime Loving Yourself-
I know a lot of this has been about self love and loving yourself through actions, but today, there should be time for some mindful self love. Look in the mirror and pick out every single thing you love about yourself, or focus on all the things you love while you meditate, whatever being mindful means to you really. No matter what you do, it is important to make time to be mindful in your self love, because it really forces you to sit with it, feel it, and internalize it. 

Even If you’re alone this valentines day, take some time to love yourself. Because In the words of my hero RuPaul,
“If you can’t love yourself how the hell you gonna love somebody else”
Amen to that. 

 

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“He is just a Friend”

This story was shared by one of my barista friend. I rewrote it in my way. 

 

I was working on that day. During my break, I received his message saying that he was going to drop by later. My heart started to race up. I told my colleagues that instead of serving customers, I would prefer to stay in kitchen. I did not know how to treat him as an ordinary customer.

I forced myself to focus on cleaning dishes or on preparing foods but I could not focus. My eyes were waiting for his smile. My ears were waiting for his voices. I was sure that each of my cell in my body was waiting for his arrival.

As soon as I saw him entered the cafe, I started to blush.

Without saying anything, he just nodded to me and sat at the bar straightly.

My colleague turned to me. I could see a lot of question marks in their eyes.

“He is my friend. He is here waiting for me to have dinner later.” I explained.

My colleagues grinned at me. Obviously, this answer did not satisfy them. I knew that they would definitely ask me more about this guy next time. The life in a cafe was too peaceful. We were eager for gossips, stories, dramas and more.

But what can I tell them? He truly is a friend. A “friend”. A friend I should not fall in love with.

 

When we were having dinner, he asked me: “how did you introduce me to your colleague?”

“A friend. ” I said. “What else can I say?”

“To be honest, I did not know how to introduce you. I did know what we are. Our relationship is special for me.” He said.

Yes, I understand. We are friends but we had sex. We are friends with benefits but we involved feelings. We are not in a relationship but we sometimes cook together, have dinner together, go grocery shopping together or watch movie together.

We blurred the line. We erased the label. We ignored the abnormality.

“Just say friend.” I replied. “I appreciated the one who invented the word friend. It could cover a lot. If you don’t want to explain, you could just say that s/he is a friend.”

Then we fell in silence.

 

 

Surprisingly, our “friendship” still lasts till now. We do not know if this is right or wrong and we do not want to think about where we are going in the future. Perhaps, we would end up with not talking anymore with each other like other couples, but I will always remember the day he visited me at the cafe. I will always remember that we were once happy together.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Single’s Awareness Day

I’ve had this countdown on the front page of my blog for the past few weeks, counting down to Valentine’s Day, or as I sometimes call it, “Single’s awareness day”. Despite some bitterness over this title, I usually really enjoy valentine’s day. I like dressing up for it, looking cute, knowing that today more than others people are thinking about their significant other and maybe doing something special for them. This Valentine’s day however, was my first one in three years without a valentine.

I can remember my last three valentine’s exactly. Last year I was on Mt. Washington in Nanaimo with my then boyfriend, Elliott. He bought me snowboarding lessons for Valentine’s day and we had an overall pretty great time hanging out with him and his friends.

The year before I had just started seeing Nate, a guy I had classes with at Langara, and we were at my place hanging out and also doing edibles for the first time. Hella romantic.

The year prior was my first ever year with a Valentine- I was at my first boyfriend Keenan’s house and he made us dinner and then chocolate fondue. Super cheesy, and a very new type of Valentine’s day for me. Some shit went down that night that almost ended our relationship, but we worked it out and were together for almost a year, my longest relationship to date.

All three of my past relationships have started roughly around the same time. New year, new person to date. This year being the exception, I was a little mopey over the fact, although not as much as I would normally be considering I have a lot more going on right now in my life and it’s working as a pretty good distraction for the time being. Never the less, I made an angsty post on my Tumblr account.

Super mature.

I ended up making plans for the day with one of my best friends, Desiree. We hadn’t hung out in a little while and she didn’t have plans. So I headed over there around 4pm. She lives a few minutes away from Commercial Drive, one of my favourite neighbourhoods, and I listened to music as I turned right at the JJ Bean and headed up the hill to her house. On the front porch I knocked on the door as well as texted her, since she shares the house with several other people. Peering through the window, I saw something on the floor. The following ensued:

She had made me dinner and essentially covered the whole place in rose petals. Never in my life have I been so seduced, and here it is, plain as day, by my best friend. We ended up doing facemasks and watching this terrible 90s romcom called “The Wedding Date” which is a movie about a woman who hires a male escort to come with her to her sister’s wedding to make her ex-fiancee jealous. 10% on rotten tomatoes, but it was worth every second to me.

Desiree had seen my Tumblr post and decided to make the day go above and beyond for me. Just another example of how friends are the best thing in the world, and sometimes guys aren’t worth shit if you’ve got someone who will cook you steak and buy you piles of Nutella-To-Go for you to snack on. I love my friends and it definitely makes this whole “not in a relationship” thing worth it sometimes.